Saturday, February 25, 2006

A Prisoner's Dante's Inferno












While going through the archives of Project Gutenberg, I came across THE TWIN HELLS BY JOHN N. REYNOLDS. Mr. Reynolds was a prisoner sentenced to Leavenworth, Kansas Penitentiary about circa 1887 and spent his term recording the lives of the prisoners at that institution and published this very interesting account of a prisoner's life after death experience. It reads like Dante's Inferno. Enough to make you dread any eternal journey like this prisoner's. Normally, you read about the "light at the end of the tunnel" experience and that there is good waiting for all. This is totally frightening.

"FORTY-EIGHT HOURS IN HELL

One of the most interesting cases of resuscitation that ever came to my knowledge was that of George Lennox, a notorious horse-thief of Jefferson County. He was serving his second term. Sedgwick County sent him to the prison, the first time for a similar offense--stealing horses.

During the winter of 1887 and 1888, he worked in the coal mines. The place where he was laboring seemed dangerous to him. He reported the fact to the officer in charge, who made an examination, and deciding that the room was safe, ordered Lennox back to his work. The convict, obeying, had not continued his work more than an hour, when the roof fell in and completely buried him. He remained in this condition fully two hours. Missed at dinner-time, a search was instituted for the absent convict, and he was found under this heap of rubbish. Life seemed extinct. He was taken to the top, and on examination by the prison physician was pronounced dead. His remains were carried to the hospital, where he was washed and dressed preparatory for interment. His coffin was made and brought into the hospital. The chaplain had arrived to perform the last sad rites prior to burial. A couple of prisoners were ordered by the hospital steward to lift the corpse from the boards and carry it across the room and place it in the coffin. They obeyed, one at the head and the other at the feet, and were about half way across the room when the one who was at the head accidentally stumbled over a cuspidor, lost his balance, and dropped the corpse. The head of the dead man struck the floor, and to the utter surprise and astonishment of all present, a deep groan was heard. Soon the eyes opened, and other appearances of life were manifested. The physician was immediately sent for, and by the time he arrived, some thirty minutes, the dead man had called for a cup of water, and was in the act of drinking when the physician arrived. The coffin was at once removed, and later on was used to bury another convict in. His burial robes were also taken from him, and the prison garb substituted. On an examination he was found to have one of his legs broken in two places, and was otherwise bruised. He remained in the hospital some six months, and again went to work. I learned of his peculiar experience while apparently dead, soon after, from a fellow miner. Prompted by curiousity, I longed for an acquaintance with Lennox to get his experience from his own lips. This opportunity was not offered for several months. At last it came. After being removed from the mines I was detailed to one of the prison offices to make out some annual reports. The subject of this man's return to life was being discussed one day, when he happened to pass by the office door and was pointed out to me. It was not long until I had a note in his hand, and asked him to come where I was at work. He did so, and here I got well acquainted with him, and from his own lips received his wonderful story. He is a young man, probably not over thirty years of age. He is not a hardened criminal; is possessed of a very good education, and naturally very bright.

The most wonderful part of his history was that during the time he was dead. Being a short-hand reporter I took his story from his dictation. Said he: "I had a presentiment all the morning that something terrible was going to happen. I was so uneasy on account of my feelings that I went to my mining boss, Mr. Grason, and told him how I felt, and asked him if he would not come and examine my 'coal room,' the place where I was digging coal. He came, and seemed to make a thorough examination, and ordered me back to work, saying, there was no danger, and that he thought I was going 'cranky.' I returned to my work, and had been digging away for something like an hour, when, all of a sudden, it grew very dark. Then it seemed as if a great iron door swung open, and I passed through it. The thought then came to my mind that I was dead and in another world. I could see no one, nor hear sound of any kind. From some cause unknown to myself, I started to move away from the doorway, and had traveled some distance when I came to the banks of a broad river. It was not dark, neither was it light. There was about as much light as on a bright star-lit night. I had not remained on the bank of this river very long until I could hear the sound of oars in the water, and soon a person in a boat rowed up to where I was standing. I was speechless. He looked at me for a moment, and then said that he had come for me, and told me to get into the boat and row across to the other side. I obeyed. Not a word was spoken. I longed to ask him who he was, and where I was. My tongue seemed to cling to the roof of my mouth. I could not say a word. Finally, we reached the opposite shore. I got out of the boat, and the boatman vanished out of sight. Thus left alone, I knew not what to do. Looking out before me, I saw two roads which led through a dark valley. One of these was abroad road, and seemed to be well traveled. The other was a narrow path that led off in another direction. I instinctively followed the well beaten road. I had not gone far when it seemed to grow darker. Ever and anon, however, a light would flash up from the distance, and in this manner I was lighted on my journey. Presently I was met by a being that it is utterly impossible for me to describe. I can only give you a faint idea of his dreadful appearance. He resembled a man somewhat, but much larger than any human being I ever saw. He must have been at least ten feet high. He had great wings on his back. He was black as the coal I had been digging, and in a perfectly nude condition. He had a large spear in his hand, the handle of which must have been fully fifteen feet in length. His eyes shone like balls of fire. His teeth, white as pearl, seemed fully an inch long. His nose, if you could call it a nose, was very large, broad and flat. His hair was very coarse, heavy and long. It hung down on his massive shoulders. His voice sounded more like the growls of a lion in a menagerie than anything I can recall. It was during one of these flashes of light that I first saw him. I trembled like an aspen leaf at the sight. He had his spear raised as if to send it flying through me. I suddenly stopped. With that terrible voice I seem to hear yet, he bade me follow him; that he had been sent to guide me on my journey. I followed. What else could I do? After he had gone some distance a huge mountain appeared to rise up before us. The part facing us seemed perpendicular, just as if a mountain had been cut in two and one part had been taken away. On this perpendicular wall I could distinctly see these words, 'This is Hell.' My guide approached this perpendicular wall, and with his spear-handle gave three loud raps. A large massive door swung back and we passed in. I was then conducted on through what appeared to be a passage through this mountain. For some time we traveled in Egyptian darkness. I could hear the heavy footfalls of my guide, and thus could follow him. All along the way I could hear deep groans, as of some one dying. Further on, these groans increased, and I could distinctly hear the cry for water, water, water. Coming now to another gateway, and, passing through, I could hear, it seemed, a million voices in the distance, and the cry was for water, water. Presently another large door opened at the knock of my guide, and I found that we had passed through the mountain, and now a broad plain layout before me. At this place my guide left me to direct other lost spirits to the same destination. I remained in this open plain for a time, when a being somewhat similar to the first one came to me; but, instead of a spear, he had a huge sword. He came to tell me of my future doom. He spoke with a voice that struck terror to my soul. 'Thou art in hell,' said he; 'for thee all hope is fled. As thou passed through the mountain on thy journey hither, thou didst hear the groans and shrieks of the lost as they called for water to cool their parched tongues. Along that passage there is a door that opens into the lake of fire. This is soon to be thy doom. Before thou art conducted to this place of torment never more to emerge--for there is no hope for those who enter there--thou shalt be permitted to remain in this open plain, where it is granted to all the lost to behold what they might have enjoyed, instead of what they must suffer.' With this I was left alone. Whether the result of the terrible fright through which I had passed I know not, but now I became stupified. A dull languor took fall possession of my frame. My strength departed from me. My limbs longer refused to support my body. Overcome, I now sank down a helpless mass. Drowsiness now took control of me. Half awake, half asleep, I seemed to dream. Far above me and in the distance I saw the beautiful city of which we read in the Bible. How wonderfully beautiful were its walls of jasper. Stretching out and away in the distance I saw vast plains covered with beautiful flowers. I, too, beheld the river of life and the sea of glass. Vast multitudes of angels would pass in and out through the gates of the city, singing, oh, such beautiful songs. Among the number I saw my dear old mother, who died a few years ago of a broken heart because of my wickedness. She looked toward me, and seemed to beckon me to her but I could not move. There appeared to be a great weight upon me that held me down. Now a gentle breeze wafted the fragrance of those lovely flowers to me, and I could now, more plainly than ever, hear the sweet melody of angel voices, and I said, oh, that I could be one of them. As I was drinking from this cup of bliss it was suddenly dashed from my lips. I was aroused from my slumbers. I was brought back from happy dreamland by an inmate of my dark abode, who said to me that it was now time to enter upon my future career. He bade me follow him. Retracing my steps I again entered the dark passage way, and followed my guide for a time, when we came to a door that opened in the side of the passage, and, going along this, we finally found ourselves passing through another door, and lo! I beheld the lake of fire. Just before me I could see, as far as the eye could reach, that literal lake of fire and brimstone. Huge billows of fire would roll over each other, and great waves of fiery flame would dash against each other and leap high in the air like the waves of the sea during a violent storm. On the crest of these waves I could see human beings rise, but soon to be carried down again to the lowest depth of this awful lake of fire. When borne on the crest, of these awful billows for a time their curses against a just God would be appalling, and their pitiful cries for water would be heartrending. This vast region of fire echoed and re-echoed with the wails of these lost spirits. Presently I turned my eyes to the door through which I had a few moments before entered, and I read these awful words: 'This is thy doom; Eternity never ends.' Shortly I began to feel the earth give way beneath my feet, and I soon found myself sinking down into the lake of fire. An indescribable thirst for water now seized upon me. And calling for water, my eyes opened in the prison hospital.

"I have never told this experience of mine before, for fear the prison officials would get hold of it, think me insane, and lock me up in the crank-house. I passed through all this, and I am as well satisfied as I am that I live, that there is a Heaven and there is a Hell, and a regular old-fashioned Hell, the kind the Bible tells about. But there is one thing certain, I am never going to that place any more. As soon as I opened my eyes in the hospital, and I found that I was alive and on earth once more, I immediately gave my heart to God, and I am going to live and die a Christian. While the terrible sights of Hell can never be banished from my memory, neither can the beautiful things of Heaven I saw. I am going to meet my dear old mother after awhile. To be permitted to sit down on the banks of that beautiful river, to wander with those angels across the plains, through the vales and over the hills carpeted with fragrant flowers, the beauty of which far surpasses anything that mortal can imagine; to listen to the songs of the saved--all this will more than compensate me for living the life of a Christian here on earth, even if I have to forego many sensual pleasures in which I indulged before coming to this prison. I have abandoned my companions in crime, and am going to associate with good people when I am once more a free man."


Sunday, February 05, 2006

A Shot of the Setting Sun From My Office


After a long week at work and a late Friday afternoon, I was treated to an inspiring sunset. I happened to have my camera and took this photo from my office window in downtown Denver and I thought I would share it.

Sunday, January 22, 2006

Dunking Dachshund





One of the joys of having a pet is caring for it's needs. My dog's name is Wilco and though it is somewhat trite, I am posting a "moment of joy" after a very much needed bath (the dog not me). The pictures were taken with the new camera I got for Christmas. It shows a rather unflattering picture of the author and his noble beast at moment of completed cleanliness.

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

New Camera

You will note that I had some photos from Hawaii posted on this site,but alas,I lost my camera in October of this year and could not post any more. (To that lucky person that found my camera, I wish you well in your photographic adventures and may you be a better person for finding it.)

One door closes and another one opens. Lo and behold,I got a new digital camera for Christmas and I plan to post some photos from my sector of the world.

Many thanks to my wife and sons for a great Christmas.

Photos coming soon!

Looking Back at 2005 to Look Forward to 2006

Introspecting on a retrospect of 2005, provides me a perspective on a prospective outlook for the new year. Say what?

The subject is "I had a good year". Though I worked harder and had some personal and career difficulties, when you add it all up, it was a good year.

Though at times, we bemoan the circumstances of our life, Providence seems to direct our steps and makes everything right at the right time. What seems like a setback may really be just a course correction. It's the long view of life (eternal?)that gives you the right perspective. Rather than bemoan what seems like a setback, how great it would be to rejoice in the circumstances that will take you to your appointed purpose(s). To have no purpose for being would be illogical. No one is unimportant. We are all really, really important beings strategically placed in the country, the state, the city, the family and the work. we find ourselves,interfacing with other people placed strategically and therein lies the stage that is set for the high drama of life.

If I look at the things that happened in 2005 as viewed from the places I've been and the people that I met and got to know, and dealt with the circumstances that I had to deal with, then I would have to be optimistic about a new year. There can only be a good year ahead. To the critics of my "Pollyannaish" attitude and my "It's Wonderful Life" outlook, I would say concede that I am the first to begin to sink when my boat is hit by the torpedo of circumstances, but at least I have the hope of rescue.

All that read herein, I pray will have a prosperous and happy new year!

Saturday, December 03, 2005

A Dream I Had

I had a dream the other night and I thought that I would post it on this blog. It goes something this...

I was driving in my car (2001 Jetta TDI) and I turned left and start to go up a hill, when I see some money (tens, fives) in the street. I stop on the hill to go back and get it, but notice just before I do, that there is whole bunch of money laying on the street up ahead. So I ignore the small amount for the large amount and proceed up the hill, stop, get of the car and then look for the money, but there is none. It has disappeared. As I look towards a park with trees near the street, I see what I think is a snowball coming right at me, but it is an apple (Granny Apple to be precise), but it does not hit me and does not land. At that point, the sky is full of green apples in all directions. There are apples going parallel in the sky above me. Quite a scene. It seems to me that there are people unseen throwing these objects at me, but not really. Not one of the thousands and thousands of apples hit me and they don't land and bounce. They just sort of disappear somehow as they come near me or the ground. At some point, the apples being "thrown" cease and I see a multitude of young men wearing white dress shirts unbottoned and untucked coming out of the park and coming down the hill behind me. It seems that they are converging on me, but they are not focused on me, but are coming to the point where I am. They all seemed to be discontent and unhappy. It seems that they are like a gang or gangs. Since I am not sure of their intent to harm me or if they will turn on me, I move back towards the car for protection.

At that point, I woke up wide awake. I have no idea if it means anything, but it sure was vivid. What would Freud or Jung say about this one?

Ending the Posting Hiatus

It's been awhile since I've posted something on my blog. I was amazed to find out during the holidays that my friends, sons, brothers and sisters actually read my musing of life.

In moments of delusions of granduer, I would like to think that someday academics or children in elementary school history classes will pour over these postings and to find the essence of my "greatness" and to marvel in my outstanding achievements. If they ever did, they would find only meager career achievements and a common and somewhat unremarkable man.

What it all comes down to is communicating to the people who you have connections to you...your friends and family. Hence,I am convicted by their interest and will resume my random postings about my life and hopefully it will provide some interest to those who are reading this blog.

Saturday, July 02, 2005

Hawaii 2005

Though it has been months since I have been to Hawaii, I thought I would memorialize my trip by blogging it. These are some pictures I took in Hawaii.

A tranquil fish pond.

A lonely lighthouse on Kauai.

A very nice island church freshly manicured.

A beautiful coastal view on the north shore of Kauai.

Some other photos of my trip are found at: http://www.flickr.com/photos/44578341@N00/?saved=1

Is Hell Exothermic or Endothermic

This was forwarded to me from an associate. I thought it was clever.

"The following is supposedly an actual question given on a University of Washington chemistry mid-term. The answer by one student was so "profound" that the professor shared it with colleagues, via the Internet, which is, of course, why we now have the pleasure of enjoying it as well.

Bonus Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)?

Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law ( gas cools when it expands and heats when it iscompressed ) or some variant. One student, however, wrote the following:

First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving.

As for how many souls are entering Hell, let's look at the different religions that exist in the world today. Most of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to Hell. Since there is more than one of these religions and since people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all souls go to Hell.

With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially. Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature and
pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added.

This gives two possibilities:

1. If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose.

2. If Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell, then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell freezes over.

So which is it?

If we accept the postulate given to me by Teresa during my Freshman year that, " it will be a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you, and take into account the fact that I slept with her last night, then number 2 must be true, and thus I am
sure that Hell is exothermic and has already frozen over. The corollary of this theory is that since Hell has frozen over, it follows that it is not accepting any more souls and is therefore, extinct...leaving only Heaven thereby proving
the existence of a divine being which explains why, last night, Teresa kept shouting "Oh my God."

THIS STUDENT RECEIVED THE ONLY "A "

Sunday, June 26, 2005

Life's Negotiation

At times, I muse that Life is a negotiation. There seems to be a quid pro quo to life's demands. You have to give something to get something. There is no bluffing life as a negotation tactic. It seems that when Life deals you a blow, a downturn, that you have to respond with a positive response or your negotiation is over.

Only the right response wins the negotiation with Life.

Thursday, June 02, 2005

The Professor and the Madman

On a long trip driving from NY to Denver with my son, Benjamin, we listened to an absolutely great book.

THE PROFESSOR AND THE MADMAN: A TALE OF MURDER, INSANITY, AND THE MAKING OF THE OXFORD ENGLISH DICTIONARY
By Simon Winchester

This is a excellent book relating the development of Oxford English Dictionary (OED) and the relationship between two men, one mentally ill and the other a quintessential genius of language, both of who progressed the landmark development of the modern dictionary. This book relates the story of Dr. W. C. Minor and James Murray, an editor of the OED.

(the paraphased narrative below is from http://www.webster.edu/~corbetre/personal/reading/winchester-madman.html)

The OED plan of inviting the scholarly world and interested members of the public to submit slips of paper with relevant data to the editorial staff, documenting early and unusual uses of words which made the OED possible.

Dr. W.C. Minor who was incarcerated in a mental hospital for the incurably insane, having murdered a man in London due to his extreme paranoia. Minor was an American, retired Union US army officer, who served during the Civil War as a physician with Union forces in the Civil War. Minor’s experiences post traumatic mental illness during the war, being forced to brand Irish deserters from the Union army, as causative of his mental state and the murder. Minor, as inmate of a was allowed many privileges such as keeping another inmate as servant, having two cells to himself, allowed stores of fine wines and foods, and most importantly to this story, being allowed to accumulate a huge library of rare books.

When Murray put out his call for volunteer labor on the OED, Dr. Minor responded and over the next 30 years contributed more than 10,000 individual bits of valuable data, one of the most prolific and useful contributors of the unpaid volunteer workers despite his mental illness.

Minor began his contributions in 1880 and it wasn’t until 1889 that James Murray learned of Minor’s situation. He visited him in the asylum and they became close, if not friends, in those more formal times, at least close co-workers. Murray even played a role in trying to get Minor released from his detention, but Minor’s constant paranoid behavior undercut such appeals until he was very elderly, weak and sick.

I highly recommend this book for your reading pleasure.

Why Blog?

As I setup this blog, I am trying to figure out why I am starting a blog and musing about what to write about. The best place to start is at the basic level so I looked up the word, "blog" for the proper definition and to determine the proper posting of writings.

The dictionary defines a "blog" as:

n : a shared on-line journal where people can post diary entries about their personal experiences and hobbies

A synonym of "blog" is "web log"....an online journal with postings of the personal experiences and hobbies.

I have no hobbies. So that leaves personal experiences, but it seems to me that there is more than "personal experiences and hobbies" being posted on blogs. Perhaps, this is a definition in development and someday it will be expanded to state, "Where people can post a wide spectrum of content of a political, artistic, educational, technical ....nature, etc."

At any rate, perhaps, this blog will become a hobby and a personal experience.